Bumps in the road..

Last night we (Curtis and I, and yes, we are back together) had our first "bump" It wasn't huge to me but he made a huge deal out of it which took alot out of me. I dont understand him..well, ALOT of the time. If something happens in a different way than he would have liked it to he gets upset over it. Yet, when i have my moments i should just roll with the punches? I love him so much, which is the mean reason i deal with it and well, mainly becasue i have no idea how to handle it any other way. We said communication was going to be the thing we needed to work on the most, yet thats what he already forgot to do. I dont think he think im really understanding.
JUST LET ME KNOW!! COMMUNICATE with me, and all will be well.
**granted i still may be a lil upset, but not as much as i would be if i wasn't in the loop**

I think i may need one of these so he will understand.

im a literal person alot of the time, yes i do know when someone is joking. But Ive always been told A man's word, is his Honor. If you tell me your going to be some place, or meet me, or whatever it is... i'm going to believe you and im going to then EXPECT you to do so. Expectations... hmm. Maybe if i stop expecting...ill stop being diapointed.

The whole thing started bc he said he was going to eat then head right over to my house. ok 30mins later..nothing. 45 mins later.. nothing. 1 hr later...nothing. almost an hr and a half later he shows up. and yes im upset. He then tellsme he needed some "me" time. that he talked to his dad... ok if he would have COMMUNICATED that stuff with me i wouldnt have been upset and would have known to not expect him so soon. But he doesnt understand that. My time seems to not matter.

Maybe he doesnt understand its a respect thing. But to me it is. He doesnt respect me and my time enough to do what he says hes gonna do it. This has been a battle our entire relationship and nothing has changed s now, yes it is respect. He doesnt respect me nough to change it.

EVERYTIME i meet him, or pick him up i am right on time if not early. Why, because i respect him. Being late to me...(depending on situation) is rude. Certain things have leeway (sp). Some things..it doesnt matter if your late. And really its not a late issue with us (at times) its just dont tell me your gonna do something then change it and expect me to be ok with it...ok now im just complaining. or venting... Isnt that the same thing sometimes. hahaha

Ok on to better things like NEW MOON. Holy Heck i am so excited for it to come out! The movie trailors look amazing. I wanna make shirts for the premiere... whos in?